I got a lecture from Dr B (about 2 weeks ago now, as this post has been sitting in the post section for bit).
Not a normal lecture..
It was 6 words and a "you bes' listen up look".
I could have just handled the "look" but it came with the specific words of "No swim, no bike, no run".
I searched for the "gray" in the black and white and it just wasn't there.
My eyes filled.
I asked if I was done racing.
I didn't get an answer.
My eyes became blurry.
You see, I give 110%. In sport, in life, in work, in relationships. I may not be perfect, but I sure try to be the best I can be in each moment. If you add that up that's 440% and that is not balance. I was told I have 110% to give and that was it. Nearly ALL of which needed to go to healing.
My UC flare comes as no little surprise. We caught it early...this is just part of the process, in reality I had been pretty healthy for a year and a few months. And I did have some doubts at Danskin if it would be my last race.....for a short time, a long time, or ever....time will tell!
I'm bummed...it could be better, it could be worse. I will get through, as it is literally a one day at a time thing.
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| Take that UC! |
There really is a whole other world outside of triathlon, but I miss that bubble. It is "known" to me and the "unknown" can be scary, but rewarding as well. I can already see such great improvements in other areas.
The good things: My pinterest is account is getting organized, along with my closets, details on our business are coming together, additional stressors eliminated and each moment of each day has a bit more calmness and collectiveness to it. Healing feels good, well, actually it hurts and sucks, but it is getting better, so bad is better than the worst.
Take the time out and ask yourself where your 110% falls, choose it wisely, choose moderation, and be happy. Life is short and so can your time be in sport. Cherish your moments, surround yourself by good people and hang onto those special moments. There are lots of mountains to climb, not just physically, but mentally too! Good luck to everyone with fun races left in their 2012 season. We are SO ready to track your success and jump through the live feed with cheers!!